Groups

It's only lately that i have been realising this but like everyone in my life seems to all just coincide with each other. They all seem to be meeting. The people i chill with outside of school and the people i chill with at the station and at school. The only people who seem to be staying out of the whole thing is my tutoring friends and my ACTUAL group if that's what they are.

Does it matter to people who i hang out? My parents even think i have too many friends LOL. Does it matter that yes, a majority of my friends might possibly be guys? So to my friends in my so called ACTUAL group... is it that bad if i just hang out with other groups all the time? It's not like i feel a part of the group anyways. constantly left out and not knowing what you guys are saying or even the things you girls are saying just dont even interest me anymore. Like srsly? sometimes all i hear is you guys bitching, well tbh i dont like it, because it's always about someone i know. All i can do is just sit there and listen to you guys and not say anything because i dont believe in bitching all the time, which is what you guys do. SO yeah, that is why i hang out with the other group alot because i LIKE the things they talk about and i ALWAYS feel included.

Okay so reading the whole boy thing on Loreyns blog and JessBee's blog and i totally agree. I always get judged most of the time when its just me hanging with a whole bunch of guys. Can't i just have a guy friends without being judged? At tutoring i am the only girl in both of my classes and everyone is always like :O:O:O:O:O:O when i tell them. But srsly it's like actually pretty awesome just hanging out with guys. No bitching constantly and they're really cool all the time. I admit sometimes im like disgusted at the things that get talked about but like just hanging out with guys is actually cool. Sometimes i also hear stuff just by hanging with the marist asians on Thursdays after school. Is it that bad to just not want to be alone? I hang out with them for the company until my train comes. Is it that bad to do that? To be the only girl in a whole group of guys? cos im use to it, so why would you judge me? Hanging out with the marist asians, i admit sometimes i feel left out about and sometimes its a bit awkward but at least they're there and they're all pretty cool to just hang out with anyways. Also when i do feel left out in some way, someone always seems to notice and somehow include me. At school with my ACTUAL group noone does that.

So yeah, groups of people, does it matter who i hang out with? Well recently for me, everything just seems to be going so fast, everyone seems to be meeting each other, kinda feel stuck in the middle. It's cool that everyone's meeting each other cos then i can talk to someone in one group and not have to explain about who the person im explaining about is BUT like yeah, im starting to get worried that i'll be left out again. That's normally what happens, you introduce someone to someone else and then the two people become close and slowly you'll be left out. It's happened to me heaps before and well i just don't want to go through all that emotional stuff again.

So yeah, i guess that is all for now.

tc,
Marjorie C, You know me