RANT

sorry about that caps lock when i typed the title.. anyways back to ranting

Gahh.. you do know that my exams are the peak right now. HSC. blah blah. To you guys, my brother always comes first when its studying. "oh its just marjorie, she can catch up, shes smart, .. lets just ask her for help, cos she wont mind, her studying" yeah what? you think my studying isnt that important. WHen kuya has an assignment, when kuya has homework, when kuya has to study its always DONT DISTURB HIM blah blah. but sure If Kuya is having some technical difficulties DISTURB marjorie cos she wont mind. Every single time you guys have a problem with like a computer, or anything tecchnological its always MARJORIE MARJORIE MARJORIE. even if i am studying, and clearly do not want to e disturbed it's always call marjorie cos she'll help. I always ask why you never call kuya, and you guys are always like c'mon you know him, he needs to study. well you know what F YOU. I have exams as well, what i study is just as important.

Its you guys that full put soo much pressure on me to do well and yet you dont give me the time or day for just myself to study. YOU GUYS ALWAYS DISTURB ME. just walk into my room whenever, even if im studying, just ask to use the computer even for like 5 minutes when i am clearly on it typing up some essay. Then just tell me off for not giving you a chance on the computer making me give the computer to you for 5 minutes. My study doesnt seem all that important to you guys. My brother is always put first for you guys. The reason i go to the library is so i dont get disturbed by you guys cos you always do. I lost 2 hours of decent study time already just because MARJORIE MARJORIE MARJORIE we're having some problems. blah blah blah. I'm like the nerd herd emergency in chuck. whenever something needs fixing, or whenerv you need help, its always marjorie marjorie marjorie.

Why dont you guys ever disturb kuya? I know he isnt the brightest kid in the world but i need my own study space too, time for myself to study without distractions. YOU ALWAYS tell me not to distract him when he isnt studying and yet when i study you just always distract me. "Oh, i know you are busy, but conrad needs help with the printer, for his assignment" blah blah.

For once could you show me that i am of equal importance?
just please?

You guys dont think i study enough, constantly pressuring me to so so well. "My coworkers at work, they have people in your grade, you have to beat them okay" .. blah blah

and you wonder why i wanted to go to ANU.. i might not even be able to study at home with my uni stuff, its a wonder how i already study for my HSC. You guys full thought i go out too much as well, when all i go is libraries to study so id ont get distracted from you guys. Now you dont even let me go to a library or even out of the house for that matter because you guys dont think i study there but just talk with friends. Gosh, really? you dont even trust me to know that i study. Even worse is when i am on my break. I decide to like do something like idk go on msn or watch tv, you guys would be like "what are you doing? Shouldnt you be studying?" and then when i say "im on my break" all you guys say is "thats a long break" when my break barely even starts. Its a wonder why nowadays i seem to skip my breaks.

could you guys please, just for once show me that im the equal sibling?
sometimes if eel like you just use me cos i know technical stuff, im a geek, im a nerd. Whatever. You guys think that im smart, and can always ctahc up or whatever, i can always give you guys the time of day, but you know what, you wonder why my report grades went down, its because you guys wont let me study at all. The time when im suppose to put more and more hours into my studying even just so i can catch up, you guys wont let me, cos you ALWAYS find something for me to do.

You know what. Thanks for showing me that i am not of obvious equal importance in this family. No matter what, in anything KUYA ALWAYS comes first. never me, NEVER me.

that is all for now.

bleh
sorry for wrong grammar, punctuation/english. i cbb fixing it. stuff it.

tc,
Marjorie C, You Know Me