Day 07 - Letter to your ex-boyfriend

Hey ..

there is so much i have to say to you that i know i would never end up saying to you. You broke my heart so many times and i hate you for that. Whats worse is that you did it way more than once. When i finally get over you and my heart falls back together, YOU come back into my life and break it again. You did it again and again. You sure put me through an emotional rollercoaster and chaged my perspectives on a lot of things in regards to relationships, boys.. and best friends.

You were my best friend, i told you everything. I miss that. Why did you put me through so mcuh emotional turmoil?

heres a story i never told you. The day after ... passed, i was wearing your necklace. I was walking through marist and it broke. I didnt realise until i had already gotten to the morley centre. The heart gem and the necklace were separated. My friends went looking for it. They found the heart gem in some other boys hands. Kinda creepy right? but i took that as a sign...

You stole my heart.. you broke it and then its always my friends who give back my heart. To this day, It isnt possible to fix the necklace. I dont even know where it is anymore either. But i took that as a sign.

Id say im over you and everything youve done.. but i dont even know that. I blame you for why i'm not allowed to like someone. I blame you for killing a lot of things for me. If you ever come back into my life again in that way. NO i wont take you back this time, like i did the other times.

But no matter what, you were still my best friend back in the day, even though seeing and talking to you sometimes can be like >.> for me.. id rather have you in my life then out of it. Just as a friend. nothing more. NEVER anything more anymore.

I hope your life is okay. I hear things. i still worry.
To me, you will always be the bestest best friend i had, you will always be you.
Id say i hate what you did to me... but i would never say it to your face. WHen you confronted me about it all, i put onb the mask.. saying it was all okay... HAHAs but i guess you know me pretty well cos you started swearing at me... telling me to stop lieing..

Well.. its all okay now :)
Id rather have you in my life than out of it. You are forgiven for everything you have put me through. I hope you're okay too =D

tc,
Marjorie C, You know me